There is more to me than just a new appearance or attitude. I am not what you would expect to have turned out to be after a situation sh*ts on a person. I am more than just a scorned female.
As a new life begins, I begin to redefine what the words living, loving, and working mean. For me, living is now just making it through the day to the final goal of my head on the pillow. This may sound simple, but taking it one day at a time or one bite at a time is the only way for me. I am not looking at tomorrow, just focusing on today.Love is the opposite. I am not working on it or even considering it as an option right now. I work too much to make love happen. I do not have time for love or even for a cup of coffee some days. I have taken on more than I can chew, but somehow I am making it work. I show up and do what needs to be done no matter how tired, pissed off, or bored I am. Believe me, in this field boredom plays a HUGE role. Working nights can become irritating, but the more the money the faster my tomorrows will be easier to look at.
Sometimes you just have to hide, get away from it all, and nurse your wounds. For me this is not an option. When children are involved, hiding is the opposite of what you need to do. Just live, love, and work.
Not Just Another Brunette
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